Cruel jokes

Life comes with it’s prices

I can’t afford it

They say to live means to love.

But loving them cost me heartbreaks.

They say in life i need to be kind

But being kind also means that i have to be ready of being taken for granted

People spit on me on the face, under the roof i built for them

I didn’t even know whether to be mad or to laugh

Cause life gave me a lesson that constant disappointments is no different than a cruel jokes

I don’t even know the answer of my questions

Is being kind means being stupid?

I told myself everyday. 

Be kind but don’t be stupid. 

But always ended up in the same place.

Is it my fault? Or is it theirs that they have to be so ignorant and selfish and cruel so they have their own satisfaction? 

The more painful life treats me the harder i laugh

The world is a messed up place and life is a cruel jokes

Maybe life is screwing with me

Or I’m the one who screwing with it

Either way it’s exhausting

I’m so tired of being used, ignored and rejected. 

I wanna be extinct for a little while

Disappear in a thin air

Published by Angky Ridayana

A sun seeker and a story teller.

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